Tuesday, August 22, 2006
"A HARD MIKE'S IS GOOD TO FIND"
I'm drinking. Had 2 Corona at my parents on the sly, daddy wouldn't have approved. Now I have downed 1 Mike's Hard Lemonade and need to go get another from the fridge. FUCK! I am so unhappy. I don't know exactly what it is too. Thats probably why I can't shake it or climb out from it. I want someone to love me. I want to say I think you are amazing and I want someone to kiss and hold hands with and eyes to smile into. I want you to push my hair back and touch my face. I want to be able to love you, have you love me.
Oh, I should say...I'm not talking about Swichi here. Not at all. He's 19. He's so young. He is not what I need for a boyfriend. There would be no future and we aren't compatable anyway. I am not going to say who I am talking about. I will say this...he is amazing. And I know if he would give me a chance we could be happy and together. *sigh*
Ok...Swichi. I haven't heard from him but he's at work so I didn't expect to. I don't know what I should do. I suppose to could email him. I expect he'll read it but he won't email back, he doesn't to anyone. And what do I say? I'm sorry you called me a bitch. I was hurt that you ignored me for 20+ minutes while you talked on your cellphone again. I know you think you didn't do anything wrong and that I am hurt/upset for no reason but I feel you did hurt me and ignore me. *sigh* I guess I should give it a few days. Maybe he'll miss me....
I'm on my third Mike's Hard and I can't tell if I'm drunk or not or what. I guess I'll just keep drinking until I'm out or I'm on the floor. Have a good night. L, E
Oh, I should say...I'm not talking about Swichi here. Not at all. He's 19. He's so young. He is not what I need for a boyfriend. There would be no future and we aren't compatable anyway. I am not going to say who I am talking about. I will say this...he is amazing. And I know if he would give me a chance we could be happy and together. *sigh*
Ok...Swichi. I haven't heard from him but he's at work so I didn't expect to. I don't know what I should do. I suppose to could email him. I expect he'll read it but he won't email back, he doesn't to anyone. And what do I say? I'm sorry you called me a bitch. I was hurt that you ignored me for 20+ minutes while you talked on your cellphone again. I know you think you didn't do anything wrong and that I am hurt/upset for no reason but I feel you did hurt me and ignore me. *sigh* I guess I should give it a few days. Maybe he'll miss me....
I'm on my third Mike's Hard and I can't tell if I'm drunk or not or what. I guess I'll just keep drinking until I'm out or I'm on the floor. Have a good night. L, E
