Monday, October 31, 2005
H a p p y H a l l o w e e n ! ! !
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Sunday woke up and felt a tiny bit better but my voice was worse and I was snufflier. Only had 2 phone calls all day and both were from my mom. Pretty much slept most of the day except when I dragged myself out and to Fashion Bug to return some clothes that didn't fit right. Laurey and I only walked around the condo property, I was too lazy/tired. Now its 9ish and I'm tired but wide awake, I think I slept too much. Sad too...no Sunday phone call from Mr Shawn. L, E
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
My new job didn't have power this morning until 10:20ish so we all sat around in the sunlight and tried on gloves and mittens and did some packaging. It was a fun, bonding experience. Need to run out and hit the ATM during lunch, I'll try to write more tonight. L, E
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Tuesday @ lunch
And then last night I was just in a very weird place/mood. I'm just really emotional and with that sometimes crying happens. I did cry but not too much. Even Laurey was exceptionally sweet to me last night, curling up right next to me and tucking her head into my neck. Sometimes she can be so sweet. But then she woke me up just before midnight barking like crazy, I guess there was something in the backyard. I wasn't happy about that but I did go right back to sleep so it wasn't so bad.
Today is yucky rainy and chilly. I need to buy a new fleece jacket since I don't have one and this is good fleece weather. But that will have to wait until after Peep Jeep is fixed (needs an oil change and 4 wheel alignment) and 4 new tires. And I'm paying $400 per month for health insurance. And Xmas is coming up! YIKES! Maybe I can make some extra money as a hooker...what do you think?;)
So thank you thank you thank you to everyone who has since emailed me to give me good wishes and sorries and good lucks.... You have given me smiles. ~E
PS- Bethie, I have no idea why you kept getting busy signals last night when trying to call me because I have call waiting but I will check with Verizon tonight.
PPS- And for all of you who want me to have a cell phone...buy me one!
Monday, October 24, 2005
Not so much to say except I am exhausted and emotional and just want to crawl into my bed and cry myself to sleep. I wish I could have a hug...that would be nice. No one is here to hug me so I guess I'll just crawl into my bed and do the crying and sleeping thing. L, E
My Friends and My New Job
Anyway...I'm on my lunchtime, more tonight! ~E
Sunday, October 23, 2005
body aches as the fear sets in
I can't tell if I just feel annoyed because my parents are being exceptionally annoying to me today (I'm at their house right now) or if I'm just feeling nervous about tomorrow. The title I gave for this post is much more dramatic then I really feel. I know I am nervous but that is normal and I should feel that way. Just kind of wondering if I'll get the crazy anxiety feelings or not. Oh well. Have to start getting up at 6 from now on, at least during the week. Thats going to hurt since I'll need to be going to bed between 9 and 10 instead of 10 and 11 but if I don't get sleep then I'm grumpy and no one likes me when I'm grumpy.
So now I am going to go home and then to Evan and Alison's for dinner and then back home to crawl into bed early and get good sleep and then up tomorrow and on my way to my new work! I'll let you all now how it goes. Keep good, happy thought for me!! L, E
Saturday, October 22, 2005
you have to love hockey after the wkend UVM just had
Helped my friend Evan get 1.5 cords of wood moved today. That involved driving out Westford, stacking the bed of his truck full (he stood in the bed and I handed him the cut wood) and then driving to his house in Colchester (45 mins) and tossing the wood out the bed of his truck and moving it into the backyard in wheelbarrows. It really wasn't bad. We made two trips and he was headed up top get 1 more load when he dropped me off, I had to make a phone call and take a shower before I went to hockey. Evan also bought me the cutiest blue Yankees hat!! Can't wait to wear it, tomorrow will have to be hat day for Erin.
Still need to look for shoes for my new job tomorrow...*sigh* I like shopping but I don't like wandering around not buying anything. Oh! Had a weird dream last about about not getting my thong to fit right and it was annoying me.... The mind is a fucked up and crazy place! Or maybe I'm just a fucked up and crazy girl. L, E
Friday, October 21, 2005
Did some shopping, lots of dress-up clothes for the new job but I still haven't found any shoes. Found a few things for the someone special in my life too.
I'm suppose to be helping Evan stack wood tomorrow so that should be fun....or at least good exersice, have to see if he'll call. But it will be good for me, don't have anything else to do except shoe shopping and I can do that Sunday. Also need to jet down to Barre to pick up my best friends Wedding dress since it is preserved and ready. So beautiful outside with all the leaves changing and it nice and cool and crisp. Wish I had someone to get lost in the woods with. Maybe someday. L, E
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Last day at Reso
I have Friday off but have to make a stop at the doctor for a blood draw (got to test my cholsterol and all that jazz) and then I need to go back to the old work to get my paycheck and exit interview. Then I'll probably be taking a nice nap on my sofa! University of Vermont has their home opening game so that will be fun!
Oh and this weekend I have to find some dress-up shoes for my new job! Shopping...love it! ~E
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
full stummy Tuesday
Yucky rainy day again but it let up a little so dad, Laurey and Tripper had a speedy 3 mile walk. Tripper looks so cute wearing her Australian raincoat!
I need to head out and drop movies at the Blockbuster, grab a few things at the grocery and then get home to do some laundry and then crawl into my bed to sleep. 2 more days..... L, E
Monday, October 17, 2005
Last Monday at the old job
Today was my last Monday at my current job. I'm having very mixed feelings about leaving. all my feelings are happy I'm going, its just strange to know I won't be there anymore. I have spent 4+ years of my life working for the company and walking through the same doors and seeing the same people, I won't have that anymore. When I'm in the call center room I feel a little sad looking around, but when I'm in the room of hatred and misery (otherwise known as the room I work in) I'm not so nostalgic. I'm sad to be leaving, don't get me wrong, but I won't miss being in that room!! Kind of teared up at one point today. My coworker Heather was like "Are you ok, did you get grumpy" and I was "No, just sad".
I spend Sunday afternoon and evening and late night cleaning my house which was basically taking everything off the sheves, tables, etc and putting it on the floor so I could clean the surface. Finally did put almost everything back around 2am. I think its the anxiety, my body wants to keep busy. Was biting my lower lip all day too and that was blue-purple by this morning.
I wore one of my new pairs of courderoy pants today, so comfy and my ass looked exceptionally good in the if I do say so myself...;) Wore my new longsleeve shirt that I thought was red colored but I was told its "rose" colored. Anyway, its pretty and I'm pretty wearing it. Had some hairclip trouble - as in the hairclip I wore this morning didn't hold my hair so I had to t hrow it in the trash. Just kept my hair tucked into the back of my shirt, its finally long enough to stay there more or less.
So thank you to all who read this and comment to me. Helps to know you care. Kind of like a hug, just with no arms but it does make me smile. L, E
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Last week: It could have always been worse --
Monday: I should have been smiley happy because I had a surprise phone call but instead I was grumpy and even a little bitchy. Sorry Mr Shawn.
Tuesday: Long day, went to 'rents house for dinner but didn't even see Dad as he was at a meeting.
Wednesday: SSDD, not the worst day of the week My wrist started hurting again today, my left one that I hurt in my workmens comsentation a few weeks ago. Not happy. Started wearing my wrist brace again, so attractive.
Thursday: Rainy, put my jeep in a ditch on the way home and was quite annoyed about that. Would have been easier to deal with it if I hadn't been wearing my pink clogs and no jacket and my wrist brace. Actually its because of the wrist brace I went into the ditch. I was driving too fast in the rain on dirt road and couldn't make the turn, wheel slipped in my hand.
Friday: Day was ok. Set the kitchen on fire trying to make myself a cup of tea but there wasn't really any damage, I just need to clean off the stovetop and burners and scrape off all the flour I used to put out the fire, should be fun.
Saturday: Rainy, yucky. Did some "dress-up clothes" shopping for the new job and went to see a movie with my friends Evan and Alison.
Sunday, today: Rainy again. In at work (right now) to clean all my files and stuff off my computer. Such fun. Did laundry to wash all my new clothes too this morning and last night. Cleaned out my closet and drawers, making my nicer t-shirts that I wear to work now, my weekend shirts and my grubby weekend shirts are going away.
I have been craving Chinese food for 2 days now so I'm going to go pick some up and make myself nice and full and then take a nap! Join me? L, E
Friday, October 07, 2005
I know I should be saying so much more but I'm just feeling really emotionally exhausted. Thats probably because Wed & Thurs I was in those "have to share the deep feelings from the heart" mood to a few of my friends might have been told me then they wanted to hear. I have always been a big believer in making sure people I care about know it. I have been known to say "I love you my friend" to a close friend, althought I haven't done that for a long time. I tell my best friend Bethie that I love her and I tell Laurey (my dog) and Tripper (my family dog that lives at my parents house) all the time and I tell my friends son Silas that I love him. But thats about it really it. I know I can be sappy and cheesy, just part of me being me. So if you were one of the lucky ones who got to hear the feelings from my heart, I hope you didn't mind too much.
Tonight is the season opener for the University of Vermont (UVM) hockey team! Puck drops at 7:30pm. So psyched! I'll have a good idea of how the team will do this season after tonights game. The #1 player, Torey Mitchell, is injured, his back or legs, so thats going to hurt the team and the #2 goalie is hurt too, Travis Russell, but thats fine with me because he's not as good of a goalie as the coach thinks. So I'll have a full update on the game and team soon!
Going to be a rainy weekend, would be nice to be cuddled up in bed with a particular special someone and sleep in late and wake up with kisses and snuggles and then spend the whole day in bed, naked...I'll leave the details to your imagination.;) L, E
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
My work day was fine. Boss called me and one of my co-workers (the 1 co-worker that is awesome, love this chick!) and told us that we (my department) is going to be taking over a big part of one of our clients from the call center and lucky me gets to take it on. Also I will be losing my big client I have now, my co-worker will be getting it and I'll be training her. I tried to be positive about it but I really wanted to pout because I like me big client, they are an awesome group to work with...but oh well. Went back to my desk and a few minutes later boss called me (just me) into her office again, review time! Review was fine, nothing I didn't already know. was a little annoyed to see how much other people in the departments opinions rated on me. I didn't get a raise. Wasn't really too surprised about that but was a little annoyed since I was promised one by my last boss but since she quit I have been screwed left and right by the company so, like I said before, I wasn't surprised.
Left workl at 5, zoomed home. 2 messages on my machine!
Oh...and had dinner at my parents house...chicken...yum. L, E
Monday, October 03, 2005
Wed - fine day, nothing big, nothing little.
Thurs - I think it raining again, just the usual SSDD.
Fri - Wasn't payday Friday so it wasn't as nice as it could be but I was very ready for the weekend!
Saturday - UVM hockey had a scrimmage and I went to watch the game and help hand-out the free stuff. Was fun. Team looked okay, I'll let you know how the season will be once I see them all in a real game. Walked Laurey with my dad, power walk! Gave me a blister on my right heal and left little toe...ouch.
Sunday - Covered my blisters with safe bandaids and just relaxed around the house. Hung out with my friend Jr. in the evening. We went to Blockbuster to rent a movie and ended up going to WalMart so he could buy some PS2 games and stuff...it was fun.
Have to say the best part of my weekend was getting to talk with my friend Shawn in Korea. He always makes me laugh and smile so much and that is amazing, he is amazing.
Today was Monday and I was back at work. Just keeping with my feeling good, being comfortable and confident because that is who I am. I am still growing and realizing and I am such a beautiful person. Beautiful Me.
Oh! And I have a job interview tomorrow morning at 8am. Keep your fingers crossed. I don't really know so much that I want this specific job, but I want the interview experience and who knows, maybe I'll get it. As much as I do love the company I work for now, its not a good fit for me anymore and I have much more to offer then they are letting me. And I don't want to be someplace for 8+ hours a day where people hate me. And the crazy part is they seem to hate me evern more when I have a smile on my face, just 1 more reason to keep on smiling!
So email me, IM me, write me, think of me, I'm thinking of you. L, E